Flesh & Blood: Reflections on Infertility, Family, and Creating a Bountiful Life: A Memoir

Honest, warm, and witty, this memoir reads like a conversation with a dear friend, a woman sharing her vulnerabilities and confidence, her pain and loss, as she endures infertility, illness, and recovery. With self-awareness and humor, the author takes readers along as she heals by focusing on the experiences of her mother and grandmothers, the wonders of the natural world, and creating a legacy f

Honest, warm, and witty, this memoir reads like a chat with a dear friend sharing her insight and taking us along as she heals. Complete with family stories over cocktails and a praying mantis named Claude. I drive and say to myself, if I am dying, if this is how I die, then this is how I die. When N. West Moss finds herself bleeding uncontrollably in the middle of a writing class, she manages to drive herself to the nearest hospital. Doctors are baffled, but eventually a diagnosis uterine hemangioma is rendered and a hysterectomy is scheduled. In prose both lyrical and unsparing, Moss takes us along through illness, relapse, and recovery. And as her thoughts turn to her previous struggles with infertility, she reflects on kin and kinship and on what it means to leave a legacy. Moss s wise, droll voice and limitless curiosity lift this narrative beyond any narrow focus. Among her interests: yellow fever, good cocktails, the history of New Orleans, and, always, the natural world, including the praying mantis in her sunroom whom she names Claude. And we learn about the inspiring women in Moss s family her mother, her grandmother, and her great-grandmother as she sorts out her feelings that this line will end with her. But Moss discovers that there are ways besides having children to make a mark, and that grief is not a stopping place but a companion that travels along with us through everything, even happiness. A remarkably honest memoir about heartache and healing, Flesh & Blood opens up a conversation with the millions of women who live with infertility and loss.